Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
I've been pondering this one for a few days. I couldn't come up with just one person. What I came up with is that I didn't let go of anyone. I let them just drift away.
I have a very hard time making friends. I'm sure some of the readers of this blog who don't adore me yet would say that it's because I'm angry and bitter and need to be prayed for. The truth is, I think that people find me awkward in social situations...and therefore, I don't get invited out a lot. And because I'm afraid that people find me awkward, I don't call anyone up to see if they want to hang out. Vicious cycle, yes?
My whole thing is, I can't allow myself to get close enough to people because they always leave or hurt me. It's worked to protect my fragile soul so far...but it definitely isn't conducive to forming long term friendships. I live behind a wall of my own building and am unsure of how, or even whether it's safe, to knock it down.