The four months in the title are the worst months of the year for me. Not because of any adoption crap..but because they are the last months of the four Quarters that make up my job.
We're in crunch time at work...and I am sick and tired of feeling stressed and anxious, worrying about making my goals. I'm seriously done with being a Credit and Collections analyst. It's no fun...at all. I shouldn't dread walking in the door, wondering who's going to pay their damn five million dollar bill.
The thing is, I don't want to go back to my old standby of being a retail whore (no offense to any retail whores out there)...I'm just not nice enough to smile nine hours straight when really, I'd rather not be bagging up your shit and working holidays just to pay the bills. I did that for too long and it sucked.
So what do I do? I have to pay the bills...and while my job isn't fun, it DOES pay the bills and I can take care of my kids...with some help from my daughter's dad and my boyfriend..and to a very, very, very, very small extent, my son's father. (Was that too snarky? Sorry, his child support is pretty much nonexistent these days and I'm really sick of the crap.) I want to do something worthwhile with my life while still being able to live.