Of course you're all right. I SHOULD be the one to contact my natural father. I guess I let the shock of it all carry me along and I ignored the little voice in my head telling me the same thing.
I just emailed her and asked her to hold off on contacting him.
You know how we were talking about "Him" this weekend? And how you were going to write him?
If you haven't written him yet yourself, can you hold off? See, the thing is, for my whole life, I've let others do things for me...because there is less chance of getting in trouble if someone else takes the heat, you know?
But now, I feel like I'm supposed to contact him myself...to let the chips fall as they may. I'll let you read my email to him before I send it...but I really think it needs to be me to do the driving on this.
Does any of that make sense? I love you and don't want to offend you by even suggesting all of this but at some point, I need to step up and take the heat for myself :)
So now I'll wait to see what she says...but in the meantime, I'm going to start drafting a letter...to "Him".
Updated on 12/6/10: Soooo, she had already written him. And now feels lousy about it because she's afraid I'm mad. I did tell her though that regardless of his response to her, I'm going to write him myself.