Back in October, I found my natural paternal brother,D. I emailed him…but didn’t hear back. Honestly, it didn’t look like he’d checked his FBook in months, so I wasn’t really surprised. I looked on his friend list to see if my other brother was there, but didn’t see his name. Hmmm..back to square one.
So now we fast forward to last week. I checked a few of D’s friends on the off chance that one of THEM was friends with M, my other brother, and OMG.
I found him. He’s a tattoo artist based out of Virginia. I emailed him..trying to break the news of my existence very gently, even paying the lousy $1.00 to get my FBook email to his regular inbox instead of that stupid “Other” one. I waited on pins and needles for a response.
And then, finally, four hours later…
“Oh cool!! Nice to meet ya Christina!! :-) “
I wrote back that I was so glad he’d gotten my message and that is was great to meet him too. I haven’t written him further because I am not sure what to say. I don’t want to scare him off. I have a billion questions but somehow can’t seem to formulate a complete thought when it comes to this. I want to ask about D…want to reassure them both that I’m not going to write our father about any of this because they, like me, are estranged from him. But how to bring that up?...especially because he didn’t write back after I did… I’m feeling all adopted and shit and am not sure whether he’s truly happy or whether he’s just being kind.
AAAAAAAAAAARGH…lol. I’m a frigging train wreck.